Martín Rangel - THINGS I'D WRITE IF THE 🌎 WERE ENDING

[COSAS QUE ESCRIBIRÍA SI EL 🌎 SE FUERA A ACABAR]

my aunt wishes i’d see a therapist
and i’m scared to see my aunt
because i had an aunt before who died
after years of a sickness
that swallowed her like a wolf
that chews up its prey in slow motion
that hurts me
my aunt is a doctor and insists that she treat me
beyond psychotropics
“you’ve suffered so much
since you were born, even”
and she’s right:
i was a sick child
my existence is a contradiction
that i’ve been obliged to
and the medication doesn’t change that
but an exchange of words is supposed to?
isn’t that what poetry is?
why hasn’t that cured me either?
i leave some places i go into others
i feel lost everywhere
with or without the GPS
on my phone on
on my phone i read:
negative-mass object created
                   (they should take a look at our relationship)
researchers trapped the atoms
with a laser beam
use a laser beam to destroy
my fear of losing you
until you realize it’s impossible and you get tired
come disprove the 2nd law of thermodynamics with me
because i love you and i’m very scared to lose you
not as scared though as i am
to say all this in language
that some people
might not consider
“literary”